Taking
Honey Home....
This past week has been a
whirlwind of activity, coupled with long hours of solitude while
driving to and from Tennessee where honey and I lived for so long.
While primarily it was to spend time with our grown boy's and return
their mother's ashes and mementos, I was also able to visit some very
dear friends and even witness (behind the curtain!) the birth of the
fifth grandchild in a very special family.
To ALL of them, I say
thank you, for including me in such a precious moment and I know that
the upcoming sixth grandchild (in about a month) will be a wonderful
blessing as well. I am honored and blessed beyond words by your love
and kindness. To those of you that I missed, I apologize...inclement
weather (In Iowa) cut my trip shorter than planned. Such is life...we
do the best we can.
The time spent with my
boy's was emotional and special as well. I got to see firsthand how
they're not only coping with the loss of their mother but doing their
best to fulfill her (our) desire to live fully and to pursue
happiness each day. I'm proud of both of them and I know my honey
would be bursting at the seams. David and Josh...I love you. I know
that juggling your work schedules and personal schedules is always
challenging, I enjoyed every minute we spent together! :o)
I was able to visit many
of the places honey and I lived and loved...time changes many things
but the memories remain. Bittersweet and tearful as it was, I'm glad
I took the time to see them again. The next task on her list is too
give her personal belongings (clothing, etc.) to those in need. I
found a local shelter for battered women and children and it will be
receiving most of it. I think she'd have liked that...boxing those
will be HARD but I intend to have it finished by the end of this
coming weekend.
After that? I just don't
know...the rest of honey's list isn't something I can predict or put
a specific time to. The knees are coming along but are stiff and
swollen from all the hour's of driving. Ice and elevation will take
care of that in a day or two. Baring the unforeseen I should be able
to return to work by my target date of February 16th.
I'm still trying to find
my footing and struggling to keep my mind and heart open to the
possibility of happiness and love. I KNOW I have those things in my
children and dear friends....it's what keeps me moving me forward. At
this point, I can't imagine ever finding a personal relationship like
I had with my sweet honey. Impossible. So...I will just keep doing
the best I can each and every day. I have goals and task to complete
once I return to work and that in itself will keep me busy for the
immediate future.
I am thankful for what I
have...yes dear. But damn, I miss you my girl....forever my sweet
honey.
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